Does It Really Matter?

I thought I would just write a quick post before I start researching the internet about what the hell I am doing wrong and why I keep gaining weight. When I have asked for advice it has come down to two theories:

a) I don't eat enough. (Hah! Yeah right!)
b) Muscle weighs more than fat. (since we weight train).

I hate it when people use option b. How about that I am just a fat ass who is never going to maintain her weight? I read somewhere online I wish that I would have kept the website that a person who was significantly overweight for most of their lives needs to exercise for 90 minutes a day at a MINIMUM. Most people need about 30-60 depending on what their needs are I guess. I have to give myself credit that even though I am ready to scream, cry, have a temper tantrum, etc. I try to tough through it although I am at the point now that I hate it soo much and my day isn't complete unless I go to the damn gym.

I was maintaining my weight between 152 and 155 lbs. but now its been skyrocketing to 158!!! What a disaster. I guess I have to exercise 24/7 and eat air. I am so disgusted with myself. I tried to measure my waist to make myself feel better, it supposedly went from a 39 to a 35, but I'm sure I was probably measuring wrong.

SIGH.

I guess I am off to researching for the night.